Saturday, February 5, 2011

9 years

It has been 9 years. And I remember almost everything. When Febuaury rolls around each year it is hard to turn off the memories. I won't go into details, because a lot of you already know the main story. My one and only sister went blind because of one month on acne medication. One month and the rest of her life was changed forever. At the time it is hard to look forward to the future and think that everything is going to be OK. Amanda has to deal with this everyday, every minute, every second of her life. At least once this time of year, I think "if only". If only we would have realized. If only she didn't take the medication at all. If only......... But she did, and this is what she lives with. I look up to my sister more then she may know. She has made something of her life despite the blindness. She has lived her life to the fullest, despite her blindness. I don't know if I would have been that brave to wake up every morning knowing that when I opened my eyes it was still going to be dark. I don't know that I would have been able to never see the faces of my family again. I don't know that I could never know what my husband looked like or nieces or nephew looks like. These are the things that Amanda will never have but she has moved forward with an awesome attitude. She has her moments. Of course she would have her moments. And every day she has challenges that most of us will never have in our lifetime. Thank you for being and example to me. Thank you, Amanda for never giving up. By the way Happy Anniversary!!!!